Hi, my name is Marissa Hadden. Or Sister Hadden, now, or soon to be. I’m about to be
a missionary for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and I couldn’t be more
excited or terrified. Since I was little, I’ve wanted to share the Gospel. (I’m not going to
cry the whole time).
I remember as a second grader in New York City telling my friends,
“we are all brothers and sisters, and lived in Heaven together.” I think we had just had a
lesson about that in Sunday School the week before, and I was eager to share my
knowledge with my friends. They proceeded to chase me around the school yard trying
to get me to take back what I had said, telling me, “We’re not sisters and brothers!
That’s impossible!” I should probably have taken things a little slower with them.
From then on, I was more timid about sharing my testimony, usually waiting for
someone to ask me about my religion, or why I was the way that I was. Then I would
explain what I believed, with cheeks glowing red, and eyes fixed on the ground. As time
went on, I realized that not everyone would chase me as I tried to share with them what I
believed, or try to get me to deny my beliefs. In high school, when people would inquire
about Mormonism, or why I didn’t drink, or why I wouldn’t swear, we would have these
incredible conversations, after which I would feel my friends knew more about me and
what I stood for, and I would also feel that my testimony of those things that I had
shared with them had been strengthened. As I found common beliefs with some of my
peers of different faiths, I felt less alone. Sharing the joy the Gospel became
one of my favorite things after a while. Although sharing this testimony, which was very
personal, could be terrifying, it is a faith-building experience.
I am going to Ventura, California to be a full time missionary. However, we can all be
missionaries. We can invite our friends and neighbors to activities. We can share our
testimonies with them, or even give them a Book of Mormon, if they are ready. I think
that the best way to be a member missionary--and this is directed mostly at the youth, because I’m not quite old enough to give advice to the adults--my advice is to be an
example of Christ-like attributes. Serving someone, or being a kind person, and even
living your own standards, can be a way of showing those around you what you believe.
They will notice a difference in your countenance, in the way they feel around you, or
how you affect your surrounding environment. Choosing not to swear or not to gossip, and only saying good things of other people. Or choosing not to drink or do drugs
makes you stand out for the better. Whether or not people approach you to ask you why
you are the way that you are--which I have had some amazing experiences with--you have
still affected them in some way. Heavenly Father is constantly preparing people to be
ready and open to accept the Gospel, and you may be a part of that process, whether or
not you know it. We can rely on personal revelation to help us as we go about sharing
the Gospel with our friends, or even as we go about our day-to-day lives.
President Nelson said, “If we are to have any hope of sifting through the myriad of
voices and the philosophies of men that attack truth, we must learn to receive revelation.”
For the longest time, I had no idea how to do this. It took me so long to
figure out the difference between my own thoughts and the promptings of the Spirit.
About a year ago--probably less than a year ago--as I was struggling with this problem, I
would pray for help to distinguish between my thoughts and the still, small voice that I
would hear. I would listen intently to talks and devotionals hoping for answers. I kept
hearing the same one, which was “If it is good, it is from the Spirit”. That answer wasn’t
good enough for me. What if I had two good things to choose between? What if it was a
good thing, but still not the path I was meant to take? This was all during the time I was
deciding whether or not I was going to serve a mission. I had talked about the
possibility for quite some time, but I was still not sure that was what Heavenly Father
wanted me to do. Finally, I decided to do something that I heard someone mention had
worked for them. I decided I would make a choice and then pray to know if it was the
right path. I told Heavenly Father, “I am going to go on a mission! Okay?” And I
immediately felt comfort and assurance that this was right. We all feel the Spirit
differently and receive revelation in our own way. However, we all share a common
need to have this guiding force in our lives.